mental silence

i hope they will be done. all the things i need to do. no idea what they are though. i think its all a mind game to keep people searching for the "next thing". your life is not complete until you do all the steps. then once you are done you still find yourself feeling empty, like perhaps there is still one more step that no one told you about. and then you will be truly happy. and what is it? death? it can only be. because only in death is your mind shut off for good. and you have never truly lived until you have died.